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Today had swim training..swam for the first time in like a month, and it was great to get into the pool again. Though I'm still a little sick with a cough, once I hit the water everything was alright. Was free, liberated, without a care. Was tiring, frustrating, weary too but nothing beats the feeling of forgeting everything and just keeping your mind free of all stress, burdens and what-not. I'm not under a lotta stress at the moment, but its still nice to have the mind blank; devoid of thought. In the pool, its just get from A to B..do it right, do it well. After swim nationals I was full of motivation to train hard, train alot and just do whatever it takes to be good. I was so full of enthusiasm then. But its so easy to say that when I'm standing by the side, admiring the crystal clear water, thinking how nice it would be to glide through it oh so effortlessly. Oh well I've gone all philosophical. I'm seldom like that so I might as well milk this for all its worth, see what comes out when I wring it dry. Perhaps I might give some insights into the dark depths of the human psyche, or comment on the sociological make-up of the world that we inhabit today. NAH. I think I'm just thinking this way cos I'm tired haha. Maybe my sub-conscious mind is more 'awake' now that my normal mind is halfway into lalaland. For once I'm not thinking about the usual superficial superfluous fickle inconsequential stuff that I usually pad my blog with. That's the side of me I choose to show the world. The side that IS me, I don't show to anyone, because I don't even know what it is. I've yet to confront what I really am. I remember a quote from somewhere, but I don't wanna dig into the dregs of my mind to retrieve it. It was something about existing versus living life. I'm sure I don't just bum around everyday doing nothing, but I don't exactly live life to the fullest either. The glass is half-full/empty... and right now I'm too tired to figure which way to look at it. Haha I sound like I'm ranting about something, not sure what, not sure how to get there, just going round in circles..until a point where I just wanna stop and get off. Haha I mean that literally. This entry has gone on for long enough, regular lucid programming will return soon folks.
cheers
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