complicated because of many things
boring because of too few things to do

this week i've been out and about 4 outta 5 days. I guess that's alot. But somehow going out just doesnt seem all that appealing anymore. I go out to buy stuff. If i'm broke then I go out to look for stuff to buy in future. And what will I do when I finally get the stuff I want? A sign in the heeren gave some answers. "dressing up gives me a reason to go out"

now i think that's quite stupid..going out just so i get a reason to dress up? what kind of insane logic is that..its downright materialistic and smacks of exhibitionism. and then...i realise that i am exactly like that. ok i think i've digressed..everyone wants to look good so i think i must be reading too much into dressing up

okay back to going out..people might ask why i yearn to go out so much. they might say staying at home is more relaxing and all. well that's true but staying at home alone is definitely not fun after awhile. Its boring. Actually i'm used to it. But on some days like today the boredom was accompanied by this weird feeling of lousiness. Crudely, i could call it "sianzation". ugh i hate using such words but i guess it describes what i felt best. anyway i resorted to the cure-all remedy. you guessed it: i went out.

So instead of feeling sian at home i left to feel sian outside. i did feel abit better cos of the fresh air and all. maybe next time i should just go do some exercise and hopefully it'll work for me.

alright this has gone on for long enough (the entry, that is) and so i'll end it. check back another time for the usual irreverent nonsense that normally populates this blog